Glass of gin sitting by the bed.
In the night, that night, that night.
Head lights shinning off the ice.
On that night, the night, one night.
When was it, that I lost my way?
When was it, that I forgot what I stood for?
Glass of gin sitting by the bed.
Somewhere a baby is born.
When did life become nothing but a bottle?
Why can't anyone seem to find me?
The snow is falling, its drifting, its coming.
Another long winter, dark, dark winter.
Alone in the dark, in the cold, alone.
CokaCola dreams, plastic themes, warm dreams
Overpriced electronics, toxic substances by the bottle,
What has money ever done for anyone?
Am I happy now
Born in the darkness, the angels, they caged me.
Now Death walks beside, Cage left behind me.
Never letting up, that life far behind me.
A force, the force, that was born inside me.
Someday, it will be free,
Free to act.
Free to kill.
Free to avenge me.
For I am now what may
Have been.
And I am not, only what
Has been seen.
I am now, and will
always be.
Tomorow, I may well
No longer be.
But for now, for now death walks beside me.
Cold and frightened I walk, but never alone.
For this shadow, be it death, be it misfortune,
Never loses pace, never falls behind, never.
Someday, I will be free,
Free to live.
Free to love.
I
That summer
That summer,
I worked myself to the bone.
I learned, learned what it was to work,
What it was to be sore,
To be tired,
To finish the day knowing I got something done.
All that summer.
That summer,
I discovered myself.
I learned who I was,
What I wanted to do,
To be,
To do the rest of my life.
All that summer.
That summer,
I fell in love.
I spent my days thinking,
And dreaming,
And aching for a touch I knew
Knew I could not have.
All that summer.
That summer,
Is not so long ago.
I have forgotten the burn of the sun
The ache of my bones,
What I dreamed to do.
But not that love,
Never that love,
That grew
Born in the darkness, the angels, they caged me.
Now Death walks beside, Cage left behind me.
Never letting up, that life far behind me.
A force, the force, that was born inside me.
Someday, it will be free,
Free to act.
Free to kill.
Free to avenge me.
For I am now what may
Have been.
And I am not, only what
Has been seen.
I am now, and will
always be.
Tomorow, I may well
No longer be.
But for now, for now death walks beside me.
Cold and frightened I walk, but never alone.
For this shadow, be it death, be it misfortune,
Never loses pace, never falls behind, never.
Someday, I will be free,
Free to live.
Free to love.
I
That summer
That summer,
I worked myself to the bone.
I learned, learned what it was to work,
What it was to be sore,
To be tired,
To finish the day knowing I got something done.
All that summer.
That summer,
I discovered myself.
I learned who I was,
What I wanted to do,
To be,
To do the rest of my life.
All that summer.
That summer,
I fell in love.
I spent my days thinking,
And dreaming,
And aching for a touch I knew
Knew I could not have.
All that summer.
That summer,
Is not so long ago.
I have forgotten the burn of the sun
The ache of my bones,
What I dreamed to do.
But not that love,
Never that love,
That grew
Who needs ideas when you have photoshop and mind altering substances?
Current Residence: Canada Print preference: Small! Operating System: Windows Vista, sadly Favourite cartoon character: Me Personal Quote: Im not pro satan, im just anti christ
I have two viable options in the next year or so.
Do I stay in school for 4-5 years and become a programer, something I enjoy but really, really dread the years of school (not to mention the price of the school) required for it.
Or, do I take a class at VanArts for digital photography and try to make a living out of what I love doing?
Really, I can't deside which path to choose.]
So, who thinks that I'm good enough to look toward that, rather than the more sure thing of a job in programing?
Any advice?
Well, with tonight's caffiene powered still-life shooting in my bedroom, and the trip pictures I have gotten around to editing so far, I'm up to... 200 images!
Thats right, 200 crappy, pointless pictures!
Lookin back, I would say I have improved, even if my first upload is still my favorite :P